Paint It Black

Paint It Black

Everybody thinks Mackey Sanders’s Outbreak Monkey is the last coming of Rock ’n’ Roll Jesus, but Cheever Sanders can’t wait to make a name for himself where nobody expects him to fill his famous brothers’ shoes. He’s tired of living in their shadow.Blake Manning has been one of Outbreak Monkey’s lead guitarists for ten years. He got this gig on luck and love, not talent. S...

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  • Sheri

    this cannot be compared to the first.

    It was especially different for me because I was one of those poor souls that clung to each installment and waited for every other Thursday to strike midnight so I could have my next fix.

    Serial reading

    was glorious but torturous at the same time.

    This is Cheever's chance and I cursed him and cheered for him and

    This is Blake's new beginning and I cried for him and believed in him and

    this cannot be compared to the first.

    It was especially different for me because I was one of those poor souls that clung to each installment and waited for every other Thursday to strike midnight so I could have my next fix.

    Serial reading

    was glorious but torturous at the same time.

    This is Cheever's chance and I cursed him and cheered for him and

    This is Blake's new beginning and I cried for him and believed in him and

    At almost 500 pages I'm exhausted.

    But to be honest, I was exhausted within the first fifty.

    Ten seems to be the magic number. Nearly ten years have passed for the guys. There are ten years between Cheever and Blake. And it felt like BTS was released ten years ago! Ha. Kidding. There certainly was a gap between the books and whatever the reason was, I’m just grateful the boys wouldn’t shut up and insisted Amy continue their story. Because I love this crazy group of misfits and could read about them till they are old and gray. I did not elect to reread the first and I’m okay with that.

    was such a powerful journey for me, I’d rather leave it untouched. Afterward, I was glad that I didn’t reread because I think that despite the fact this is a sequel, the books are vastly different. Because Mackey and Cheever are vastly different. BTS was Mackey while PIB is Cheever. Which reminds me, can we give him a nickname? Please? Maybe CJ? Chez? Something! Anywho, don’t worry if you haven’t read BTS for a few years, Lane takes us back and provides flashbacks to highlight what we need to remember. I found the first few chapters crucial to slipping seamlessly into their world again. Fame and fortune are hard-won and carry extra weight. The brothers have settled into the land of grown-ups with responsibilities and expectations. It’s not just Outbreak Monkey against the world anymore. There are wedding bands and children and the chores of real life. Cheever was left behind in more than one aspect. Fighting his demons alone took him to a slippery slope and suddenly he couldn’t stop the slide. Blake swoops in and pulls him back. And this time when Cheever’s fog clears, everything looks different. To survive he can’t do it alone. Turns out…he doesn’t have to.

    This is Blake and Cheever’s story but everyone is present and accounted for. My heart was so full spending time with Outbreak Monkey again. I can’t believe how much they have changed yet how much was the same. I adore Blake and I’m thrilled he found his ‘happy’. He deserves it. Always in the shadows, a loyal and steadfast adopted ‘brother’ he never wanted much. Or perhaps it was that he never thought he was worthy of much? His huge heart was overflowing but draining at the same time. He needed someone to refill him and recharge him. He needed Cheever. I was slightly skeptical of Cheever at first but once he let us in, he stole my heart as well. He covered his hurt and tried to hide his pain. Turning to drugs gave him an escape from his continuous loop of torture. He had a plan and was going to slide by with his talent and show everyone what he was made of. When he fell short from reaching his desired destination, he shattered. Blake comes to his rescue and can’t get over the secrets Cheever has been hiding. He’s also shocked to find the man who was the boy he once knew. But Cheever is family and his best friends brother…he can’t fall in love with him. Or is loving him exactly what he’s meant to do? Their road is rugged with wicked turns, but they figure out together they can make it through anything.

    Oh, mercy! Where do I begin? Triggers are aplenty: rape, addiction, overdose are the top 3. However, the healing, recovery, and revival will soothe your battered heart. The music, the poetry, the art will burn into your soul. And if you’re searching for the epitome of the tremendous power of love, look no further.

    groupies need this book. And if you don’t know Outbreak Monkey, start at the beginning and…good luck.

  • Wendy

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    If you were to ask us to recommend one of our most unforgettable reads,

    would be at the very top of that list. It’s hard to put into words the magnitude of emotions Mackey and Travis’s story put us through and difficult to convey the sheer brilliance and heartfelt raw talent Amy Lane gave to their story. 5 stars would never be enough for that book. It was

    If you were to ask us to recommend one of our most unforgettable reads,

    would be at the very top of that list. It’s hard to put into words the magnitude of emotions Mackey and Travis’s story put us through and difficult to convey the sheer brilliance and heartfelt raw talent Amy Lane gave to their story. 5 stars would never be enough for that book. It was an experience we’ll never forget.

    To encounter Mackey Sanders struggles and become enveloped in the beautiful and curious Sanders family dynamics in

    was to be left with an indelible mark on your heart. Every single character affected us, so you can imagine how thrilled we were to hear Amy Lane had written Blake and Cheever’s story. We were excited and maybe a little worried, from an emotional perspective, to return to the rock star household, and thrilled to be spending more time with this family.

    In the interests of understanding all the characters nuances and personalities, please do not start Paint It Black without first experiencing Beneath the Stain. The foundation for Cheever and Blake’s story begins in Beneath the Stain as secondary characters, leading to the events in Paint it Black. Although, to be honest, you can’t categorise any of the characters in these books as secondary.

    If Heather Sanders, single Mum to the four Sanders boys, is the heart of the Sanders family, then Mackey is the soul, and every blood and extended family member, the glue that holds the Sanders household together. This is one tight-knit family. Their love pours from every page, their heartache bleaches into every corner of your heart, and all these characters will render you speechless.

    Cheever Sanders is the youngest of the Sanders siblings. What his family lacked in money and materialistic wealth, they more than made up for in loyalty, friendship and love, forming a tight bond that couldn’t be broken. The three oldest Sanders boys, Mackey, Kell and Jefferson, together with their ‘brothers‘ by bond, Stevie and Blake, toured relentlessly riding on the success of their band Outbreak Monkey to achieve financial stability for Cheever and Heather. Their hope was Cheever would have the opportunities not afforded the other boys by attending the best schools to further his love of art.

    To anyone on the outside, Cheever appears sullen and ungrateful for the life bestowed on him, distancing himself from his hardworking brothers, however, underneath Cheever was singlehandedly trying to face his demons, and unbeknownst to his brothers, going through his own personal hell.

    After hearing Cheever has gone off the rails, Blake Manning, a former addict who had spent time in rehab nine years earlier with Mackey Sanders, sets out to help Cheever, however, what Blake finds, makes him face his own demons and self-doubt.

    Blake Manning, the guitarist for Outbreak Monkey, is a man with a beautiful heart and soul yet plagued by self-loathing and worthlessness, feelings he’s carried from his younger years when he was forced to survive any way he could after fleeing an abusive and vile drug-addicted mother. Brought into the Sanders fold, Blake is lovingly protected and loved as one of their own, and whilst we deal with Cheever’s demons and his fight to find his place in his family, it was Blake who hit our hearts the hardest. This man who loved with fierceness and opened his heart so freely yet refused to believe he was worthy of love, brought us to our knees.

    Paint It Black needs to be experienced without spoilers as Amy Lane once again delivered a painful and difficult story driven by raw emotion and a beautiful love story at its heart. This is a tender and sincere account of two men each warring with their demons and whose hearts cried out for the other. There were times we found ourselves grinning from the witty banter, and times we felt our hearts crash and soar, and moments that reduced us to tears.

    Beneath The Stain will always be our sentimental favourite, and for that reason, we can’t and won’t compare Paint it Black to Beneath the Stain. Whilst there is a similar theme between both books, each stands on its own for characterisation and storytelling. Nothing in Blake and Cheevers story is superfluous; every page gave us much insight into Blake, Cheever and the Sanders clan. Every tender, heartbreaking, sweet, funny and moving moment was savoured then locked away, into our hearts for safekeeping.

  • Veronica WordsAreMyDrinkOfChoice

    Cannot wait! It is going to be amazing!

    Not impressed with Blake who has been In Recovery for nine years and is ten years older than Cheever, being treated like a delicate child. Cheever is the one who is young and vulnerable, but all he seems to get is straight talking and reminders not to hurt Blake? Seriously? The family really let him down in this one and a lot of it just seemed swept over, his pain, but not Blake’s? Also, Briony just seemed like a bitch in this one and needed taking down a p

    Cannot wait! It is going to be amazing!

    Not impressed with Blake who has been In Recovery for nine years and is ten years older than Cheever, being treated like a delicate child. Cheever is the one who is young and vulnerable, but all he seems to get is straight talking and reminders not to hurt Blake? Seriously? The family really let him down in this one and a lot of it just seemed swept over, his pain, but not Blake’s? Also, Briony just seemed like a bitch in this one and needed taking down a peg or two. The way she spoke to Cheever was terrible? Also their kids are allergic to everything!

    Amy Lane is a goddess and Beneath The Stain is pretty much perfection to me. I did really enjoy this book, but there were issues for me that stopped me loving it. Firstly Cheever shoulders way to much guilt and blame. He was a tool when he was younger. But come on he was basically 13 when he did all the horrible shit he did. But he got held accountable too much. Then when he does try to behave he is wrong because he is distant? Cheever from why I saw went to the family dinners and played with the kids, but still did not let himself get close to the family. Not exactly terrible behaviour. I also found some things contradictory in this. Sometimes in this book we are told Cheever walls around like a flash asshole spending all the money given to him by his family. Then Travis says he was not wasteful and did not use all the money given to him? Also, we are

    Told Cheever hurt the family by basically never being around them? But then we see he went to nearly all the family dinners? So he hardly ignored them? I found he couldn’t really win. Sure he distanced himself, he may have been selfish and aloof, but he was not an asshole in my eyes. I also could not really blame him. His family are good people who provided for him and tried to protect him. It is not their fault, but unfortunately Cheever got hurt. He also felt left behind and left out, and to an extent he was. I don’t mind Heather, but she was not as present with Cheever as she should have been. I also was lost why he got sent to basically boarding school. I get it was for a good education, but Cheever was the only one still at home, he was the youngest and already felt out of the loop, so maybe keeping him close by a a decent school would have benefitted him more? I loved Blake and Cheever together, they really were beautiful. Their love was obvious and their chemistry amazing! I loved seeing Blake finally accept love and heal!

    I did not appreciate the fact that Cheever’a Family seemed to protect Blake at the expense of Cheever. Do not get me wrong Blake suffered and was hurt immensely. He had a lot of pain to heal from and he was a kind and sensitive man, so looking out for him is justified. What is not justified is basically insulting Cheever by warning him to not hurt Blake, as if he is nasty and malicious. This also makes no sense to me as Cheever is about ten years younger them Blake and is only just out of hospital, where as Blake has been out of rehab for 9 years. He has had time to grow and heal and build a family with the guys. Cheever is the one who recently tried to harm himself, he should have been the priority and the one in need of prostration in my book. I felt his abuse was kind of overlooked and he was expected to just heal and be done basically. The guys was raped, neglected and hurt, I felt he was just left to it. His sins were held against him to much in my opinion. He should have made more effort with the guys, but then maybe they should have seen him hiding and distancing himself, and realised something more was going on. I also felt Cheever kind of turned into a calmer version of Mackey and was too foreign up. He. Basically seemed more stable and grown than Blake in a short time, and went from fucked up to in control and settled very quickly. I also found Cheever being a god in the bedroom due to his experiences and age a little unrealistic. I also got a bus frustrated with Blake insisting Cheever was going to leave him. As I used before Briony rubbed me the wrong way. She apologised but too little too late in my book. Also her reasoning sucked, the guys were so hurt by Cheever staying away? He was the youngest and true one left behind, maybe you should have tried harder, or not hold that against him knowing he was abused? Seriously he was he husbands brother, not some randomer, and the way she talked to him was a joke. I found the whole domestic scene a bit cringe. The whole everyone had allergies and intolerances was over the top as well. They settled down, but they did not need to become kitchen nazis, the whole them not eating sugar and then hiding eating the biscuits was just sad. . Sheila also seemed less calm and sweet in this book and more like Briony. Team was also protested like a more grumpy control freak in this book and honestly their was still questions about Stevie and Jeff’s relationship? After all this time? It was a bit obvious what the set up was. I did love seeing the fans and this book was beautiful, I just felt Cheeve got it a little too hard!

  • Karen

    4.5 black stars rounded up because still no 1/2 stars here on goodreads and I loved this one so what the heck.

    I'm not sure that I'd say you 'have to' read 'Beneath the Stain' to follow this story but I do think it would be very beneficial and honestly, it's such an awesome story and if you're a fan of Amy Lane, I can't imagine that you haven't or wouldn't want to but that's for each of us to decide.

    I loved 'Beneath the Stain' I read the book a

    4.5 black stars rounded up because still no 1/2 stars here on goodreads and I loved this one so what the heck.

    I'm not sure that I'd say you 'have to' read 'Beneath the Stain' to follow this story but I do think it would be very beneficial and honestly, it's such an awesome story and if you're a fan of Amy Lane, I can't imagine that you haven't or wouldn't want to but that's for each of us to decide.

    I loved 'Beneath the Stain' I read the book and I thoroughly enjoyed the audio book. No matter what the format this story just worked for me but now we're faced with the second book 'Paint It Black' and I admit I was nervous...could Ms Lane pull it off could she write a second book that was worth of what she started with and the answer for me was...yes. Was it as good as 'Beneath the Stain' I think that's a matter of individual opinion but for me it was and comparing them was also a little bit like comparing apples and oranges. Both had their own strengths and weaknesses and each story brought a different perspective to the same time frame and some of the same events through the eyes of different characters.

    In 'Paint It Black' the focus is on Cheever Sanders younger brother to men of 'Outbreak Monkey' whether by blood or of the heart these men are brothers and 'Blake' his membership to this band of brothers was a little harder earned by he's every bit as much a brother as the the others, he just doesn't realize his own self worth.

    Cheever has reached adulthood but it hasn't happened without a price and while his brothers have spent the intervening years trying to reach him. He's had his own reasons for keeping them at arms length, they just weren't as good as he believed them to be. it's said that it takes a village to raise a child...well it can also take a village to pull that same child from their path of self destruction and that's where Blake finds Cheever.

    'Paint It Black' was an exercise in perspectives. What Blake and the other band members saw as an young man who was acting out and spoiled turned out to be a young man who was struggling to battle his own demons and hold himself together and failing.

    While most of this story takes place at the same time as 'Beneath the Stain' did. Things that happen in this story either weren't reveled in that book or we get to see them from a different (someone else's) perspective.. We also get to know so much more about both Cheever and Blake. I loved having a closer, more intimate look at these two men and their lives.

    Both Cheever and Blake have been showing the world a very different person than the one they truly feel themselves to be and in their own way they have each become their own worst enemy. Cheever feels like he doesn't belong and no one truly cares or wants to know what's happening in his life. Blake feels that he's just never good enough and it's not until each of them starts to see themselves through the eyes of those who love them that they also begin to realize their own self-worth. I loved Cheever's friend, Marcia. She was awesome...it took a lot of guts for her to walk out of rehab because she needed to find Cheever and be sure he was ok. She was totally the kind of friend who'd walk in when the rest of the world was walking out.

    Marcia wasn't the only awesome woman in this story there were more than a few Heather Sanders Mackey, Kell and Jeffereson's mom but really she was mom to all of them. Briony, Kell's wife she was fierce when it came to keeping the household on track and that may not seemed like much but for this group it really was a crucial part of their life. Sheila, Jefferson and Stevie's wife...she was that bit of calm that buffered them all and helped to smooth the edges when things got rough. Each of these women had their own unique super-power that contributed to making the groups world just that much better and they always seemed to have room in their hearts for one more...it's how a family works.

    'Paint It Black' was every bit as gut wrenching and emotional for me as 'Beneath the Stain' but each in their own way. While the ending of 'Paint It Black' was maybe a little more over the top than I would have liked it fit the people in this story. This is a bigger than life over the top family and somehow they just seemed to need and deserve that bigger than live over the top HEA ending...so for me it all worked. I really just need one more thing to make this all perfect...does anyone know when the audio book is come out and can I expect Nick J. Russo as the narrator?

    *************************

    A copy of 'Paint It Black' was graciously provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.

  • Ele

    Maybe it’s not fair to compare a book to its predecessor but it’s just impossible to

    compare

    to the masterpiece that was

    . Not just because it’s the same series but because A) a lot of scenes overlap with the first book, and B) the characters of the first book play such a big role here and get so much page time, it’s easy to forget that they ‘re not the actual MCs.

    The first 40 % is packed with A LOT of angst. Not relationship angst, but the kind t

    Maybe it’s not fair to compare a book to its predecessor but it’s just impossible to

    compare

    to the masterpiece that was

    . Not just because it’s the same series but because A) a lot of scenes overlap with the first book, and B) the characters of the first book play such a big role here and get so much page time, it’s easy to forget that they ‘re not the actual MCs.

    The first 40 % is packed with A LOT of angst. Not relationship angst, but the kind that makes you crave a drink or ten. Abuse, rape, addiction, overdosing, suicide attempt…it’s all there on page.

    For me

    was a good book that reminded me of the good old Amy Lane. Long-ish but didn’t bore me at all. There was a good amount of angst (not heart wrenching, mind you) and an even bigger mount of feels. The steamy scenes were super hot and emotional and like in all Lane’s books the sense of family is very strong. And that was all….Nothing really special.

    I’m definitely going to be the minority with this one so I’ll just go straight to what did not work for me to keep this helpful.

    There were three things in the book that, after a certain point, started to feel annoying:

    First, it was Blake’s constant tendency to put himself down.

    …. Phrases like this became his moto until the end and, honestly, this is where most of the conflict kept coming from. I got it at first, but later on it became just an excuse and irritated the hell out of me.

    Second, I understand that Cheever had been horrible to his family while he was growing up but I didn’t feel like this family was really supportive of him after they learnt about his abuse. By that I specifically mean his brothers who, instead of a heart to heart conversation about forgiveness and support, kept telling him that they ‘re worried about

    hurting

    , not the other way around. This right here is very indicative:

    Third, the villain. Not only there was no real penance, but his reaction when Cheever and the others confronted him all these years later was super weird to me. That’s all I’ll say so that I won’t spoil everything.

    If you loved the first book I suggest you go for it. I struggled with my rating but I’m rounding up to four stars because

    brought me back to a universe that I really loved.

  • Dia

    is the second book in the

    series by

    . You must know that it's not a stand-alone, but I strongly recommend you to read

    . I loved it and it's one of the best stories I've ever read.

    In

    we get Cheever's story. He's the youngest of the Sanders boys, much younger than Mackey - one of the MC's in

    and Outbreak Monkey's lead singer. In the first book when we meet Cheever he was only a few years old

    is the second book in the

    series by

    . You must know that it's not a stand-alone, but I strongly recommend you to read

    . I loved it and it's one of the best stories I've ever read.

    In

    we get Cheever's story. He's the youngest of the Sanders boys, much younger than Mackey - one of the MC's in

    and Outbreak Monkey's lead singer. In the first book when we meet Cheever he was only a few years old. Later, he grew up and became so rude and spoiled. I have to admit I disliked him SO much, because he just seemed he was a 13 years old homophobe and he hurt his brothers any chance he got. Now this being said, I must mention that I wasn't that excited to read his story, but I am glad I did, because Cheever hid SO much from his family. His story surprised me and it's really heartbreaking, full of unexpected scenes, gut wrenching scenes! I won't give too much away, but I will mention that there are some triggers, so be aware.

    This second book is full of angst right from the beginning, as opposed to the first one.

    After a lot of pain, heartbreak and suffering, the second part of the book gets pretty sweet.

    What I loved the most would be revisiting all the characters from

    . Ten years after

    's ending and our favorites characters are just as close.

    Blake Manning is one of Outbreak Monkey’s lead guitarists. I really liked him in the first book and was pretty sad he didn't get his HEA. I hoped Kell would return his feelings, but I couldn't have been farther from what really happened.

    In this book we witness Cheever's healing process, but also Blake's struggles to admit he was loved. He didn't believe it could happen to him. Well I got angry with him at times, as he kept wanting to run for the hills from Cheever.

    My biggest problem with this book would be that the evil character didn't get what he deserved. He wasn't punished for his actions! And after all the time I spent in hating him (more than half of the book), in the end it felt like what he did - for years! - got erased pretty fast with no real consequences for him. Or it's just me and my need to get the evil punished?!

    I will also have to admit that the ending felt too sugary sweet for me. I wanted Blake and Cheever to get their happily ever after, but the ending felt kind of forced to me.

    Overall I enjoyed it and it was a great continuation to the first book.

  • Adam

    Cheever watched his brothers rocket to stardom, while he remained behind in the hellhole of their hometown. Full of resentment and broken by trauma, Cheever barely makes it day by day.

    When it finally becomes too much, Cheever decides to end it permanently. But Blake gets to him just in time.

    Blake may have gotten fame and money through the band, but he still has scars from his own past. He knows he needs to take care of Cheever, for as much his own sake as Cheever’s.

    Cheever was a decided

    Cheever watched his brothers rocket to stardom, while he remained behind in the hellhole of their hometown. Full of resentment and broken by trauma, Cheever barely makes it day by day.

    When it finally becomes too much, Cheever decides to end it permanently. But Blake gets to him just in time.

    Blake may have gotten fame and money through the band, but he still has scars from his own past. He knows he needs to take care of Cheever, for as much his own sake as Cheever’s.

    Cheever was a decidedly unlikeable character in ‘Beneath the Stain’. He was an awful brother, and just unpleasant.

    But it turns out there were some underlying reasons for it all. Heartbreaking reasons.

    ‘Paint It Black’ is full-on angst-and-pain Amy Lane. My heart broke for Cheever. He definitely could have been a better brother in book 1, but he was just a kid after all. And one who went through the worst.

    Seeing Outbreak Monkey’s rise to fame through Cheever’s eyes certainly put things in perspective. The band may have struggled, but so did the people they left behind.

    And so it’s not surprising that Cheever would latch on to Blake so quickly, as deprived of love and friendship as Cheever was.

    Blake, used to being the one who fades into the back, suddenly becomes someone’s center of everything. He was incredibly sweet. He’s not a hero, and makes mistakes, but he was completely committed to Cheever from the get-go.

    Plus, they had the support of the Outbreak Monkey family.

    This was the part of the book I struggled with - Outbreak Monkey was just a bit too

    . The band’s become a bit of a commune. They’re all constantly up in each other’s business.

    Though what really made me a tad uneasy was the gender roles within that commune. The Outbreak Monkey women seem to have become relegated solely to childrearing. It didn’t fully mesh with how I remember them from book 1.

    While Blake and Cheever fell for each other fairly quickly, I wouldn’t call it insta-love. There’s years of history beforehand, just not in a romantic sense. And when it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be!

    The two men struggle through a lot, and get thrown a few curveballs (it’s Amy Lane, after all). But both were committed to dealing with the issues, past and present, to get to their happy ending.

    Overall, I enjoyed ‘Paint It Black’. It wasn’t as grand of a romance as Beneath the Stain, but still delivered the angst, complex emotions, growth, and true love you can expect from this author!

  • ⚣Michaelle⚣

    Holy Shit! Is this a sequel to

    ?

    *grabby hands*

  • Nat ReadingAllNite

    Made it to 200 pdf pages. Well, that went downhill fast, disappointing. Maybe I’ll try again one day. Too bad but at least I had BtS. And fuckit, I’m marking it read after 200 pages but I won’t rate it even though I could.

    Made it to 200 pdf pages. Well, that went downhill fast, disappointing. Maybe I’ll try again one day. Too bad but at least I had BtS. And fuckit, I’m marking it read after 200 pages but I won’t rate it even though I could.

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